I hate recommitting.
There is an element of failure,
a sense of duty.
A recommit often becomes a should
and most "shoulds" are doomed.
The parent's voice in my head says,
"you said you would do it.
Now you didn't.
You're a loser."
Wouldn't it be nice to have a reset button like on a computer
that lets you get back to the factory settings with one click.
If it is true that deep inside
I know the right thing to do,
then if I hit the reset button
3-5 times a day
I may stray off course but I can correct before the pain arrives.
This is not hard at all
it just means finding someone I love
being willingand asking for help