For me turning 30 was painful.
Coming from a generation that was taught “Don’t trust anyone
over 30”, it was like approaching the Dark Side.
I was a mess of emotions.
I was in a rough place. My wife and I continued to live beyond our means, using credit cards to keep our lives afloat. I was in the midst of an early and ongoing “mid-life crisis”. Music was not paying the bills, and I could not go back to selling cars again.
On my birthday I remember the only phone calls I got were
from creditors, and the only mail I got was bills (sounds like a blues song...)
At the same time I was getting this strong internal desire
to have a child with my wife Shelby.
People speak about a woman’s body clock, but I know it is
not just women that have this feeling.
Having known Shelby since before the birth of her first son, and having helped raised him from
the age of 5 or so, Shelby and I felt we would be good parents together. But our son was still a year and 10 months
away from showing up.
I guess what
I am saying is
Life is not
simple, not orderly,
It rarely
happens as we want it to.
But somehow
it all works out
And a
wonderful person
Shows up
And grows up
into a wonderful man,
father and
husband.
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