Monday, October 28, 2013

Passion Party #490 - Turning 30

For me turning 30 was painful.
Coming from a generation that was taught “Don’t trust anyone over 30”, it was like approaching the Dark Side.

I was a mess of emotions.

I was in a rough place. My wife and I continued to live beyond our means, using credit cards to keep our lives afloat.  I was in the midst of an early and ongoing “mid-life crisis”.  Music was not paying the bills, and I could not go back to selling cars again.

On my birthday I remember the only phone calls I got were from creditors, and the only mail I got was bills (sounds like a blues song...)
At the same time I was getting this strong internal desire to have a child with my wife Shelby.

People speak about a woman’s body clock, but I know it is not just women that have this feeling.
Having known Shelby since before the birth of her first son, and having helped raised him from the age of 5 or so, Shelby and I felt we would be good parents together.  But our son was still a year and 10 months away from showing up.

I guess what I am saying is
Life is not simple, not orderly,
It rarely happens as we want it to.
But somehow it all works out
And a wonderful person
Shows up
And grows up into a wonderful man,
father and husband.

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Passion Party #489 - Clean Page

I love the thought
of starting a clean page.
A new blank book, crisp and untouched
with unlimited potential.

My favorite writing book consists of blank lined pages,
hard bound, pages numbered in the lower corner.
The binding is solid
like something of value
something that will keep for a long time
something for the ages.
The numbered pages help me know
I am at the beginning of a new chapter.

The new chapter is arbitrary
one book runs out of pages and the next one starts
but it is timely
and at the moment feels appropriate.

Thoughts flow from my mind
ink flows form the pen
the clean page becomes filled
and it is time to start another day.

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

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Passion Party #488 - Busy Brain

Estate plan
Quarterly reports
Thank yous
Gift Certificates
Come alive again
Great sex
Sun rising
Off to work
how do I fit it all in?
Back to work
Forward to work
We meet and share our deepest fears
that our parents don't love us
But of course they do.
What you look to find
is often what you discover
so look for the good
wage peace and prosperity
Give what you can
There is a story here to tell,  though I am not sure what it is
And I love you.

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Passion Party - Simplify

I have started to simplify my life and I do that first by choosing who I spend my time with.
Creating time is an interesting concept - there are only so many hours in the day, but it seems that some people get so much more done than other people.
It is like cleaning the hard drive on your computer: you can create more space and then things move faster.
So today I want to give things away to create more space in my life.
I want to give my time to help others.
I want to give good financial counsel to the people I love.
I want to give away some old clothes I don't wear any more.
I want to give my son a ride to and from school.
I want to be of service to the school music programs.
Being generous feels good.
The more I give, the more I will be able to receive.